330 Charlotte

I love you 330 Charlotte, I want to come see you when it tickles my fancy. Being away from you is okay, I guess, but I'd rather just be free. Maybe you'll stick around, but I want what's best. Even if it means you get abandoned these next two years. Those blinds in your window will always remind me of the many times I peaked through to say hello.

I feel bad that I excitedly shoved the opportunity at Western in your face when there was more to your relocation than I presumed. I know you love me and we'll be okay, I would just prefer you doing it close by. Or maybe it's better and I'll become more independent n stuff. I don't really know, I hope you're not swayed by me.

Smart Lad.

Nothing says I'm sorry like your physical presence.

tick tock fuck you

I was pretty pumped after our phone conversation last night. You break the news that you're going to drop off ten more resumes before seeing if you can use the car to come see me, finally. While I'm stressed from my exams and have no one here as an object of sympathy after my grandma dies, it's great to finally have some release. Plus, you make me really happy, and I'm horny from deprivation.

I wake up three times out of anticipation, which I let you know. 

It's noon, and I convince myself it's reasonable - you might still be out there or maybe they started training you already. I tell myself this while also staring at every red car that meanders by in case you've decided to surprise me.

MY MISTAKE. I awkwardly creep your home phone number and call only to find out that you forgot. That feels great. Thanks for getting my hopes up only to find out that you couldn't even remember to send me any relevant information.

It's just me. I just love you and gushed my intestines out last night about how excited I was.

Rant over before it never ends.

Back to MizBiz

I love unfriending people.
Because people are lame.

breathe woman!

ugh studying makes me overeat like a mofo.
this is why I keep my groceries understocked.
why? because food will always feel exponentially better than studying.
but it won't get me a degree, so back to business girl

The Home Stretch

That space of time where I really figure out if I've been learning anything or just digesting information.
In one ear and out my ass.
3 days until exam day.
I need these marks ohhhh baby.

Skype - the evil

An unsuccessful Skype session left this girl in tears after a breezy encounter with boy.

The connection was false, and after continuous isolation studying, with none of my close friends nearby, seeing the one person that would help me the most in that setting was pitifully disappointing.
It also didn't help that I was given no detail into our next encounter. Normally I'm fairly chill, but these are shitty post-mortem times. There is nothing more calming than the reassurance of time and numbers.

Upon returning to the textual platform, we agreed that the medium wasn't for us.
The cold synthetic interaction did more than exacerbate the sense of longing.
Talking to a computer screen always made me uncomfortable, I've never been able to do it.
In the spotlight, it is so distant from true human interaction. You are put in a small window with a timer measuring your interaction and limited mobility. The person on the other end could be looking at anything - porn if they wanted. I get the weirdest feeling from looking at someone's eyes through a screen without seeing them.
The 'uncanny valley' might explain this as so close to a real human experience that it evokes an opposite response to the sense of connection advertised.

One would agree.

home

I just want to go home, kiss my friends and get drunk in someone's yard.
Drive to Havelock, pick up a delicious hangover bagel and curl up on the catch and watch movies with corgi Agnes.

comfort where are you!

Logic

You only piss me off when you're not around.

Babies

When they laugh: OMG MOST HEARTWARMING SOUND EVUR!:'D
When they cry: shut up baby

London Public Library

This could be the most harmonious and enjoyable place if the library invested in bouncers. Equality is nice, but your smelly, rude and obnoxious. Quiet resolute nerds only please. Guttural snoring and raving homeless men. Damn government funded public places. I <3 class systems!

:(

And here comes the sadness Oh wait, I need to study for the two finals that are crucial to my progress in my degree Fuck I need really good marks too Bad timing world I just want to curl up in a ball and bawl

to my gma!

Space cloud hollaaaa this toffee white chocolate blondie goes out to youu

bramble

Aw man, all I want to do is make a hilarious ironic comment on this girl's pregger baby photos but that would be mean yes dont do that EVEN THOUGH IT"S HILARIOUS Called it before she reached age of consent sorry internet, I just find non-high-school-graduate pregos funny I believe in pills and vacuums, how bout you?

nyehhhhhh, he's a stinker. and i want his stinky babies.